Recent January days...

It's been a long time since i posted lol..cuz i was really after CF..lol and kinda busy as well..>_>'' so i'll be updating the blog and posting everything for the whole month of january..^^

Well moving on with my life...School has been hectic and chaos for the first 2 weeks of school..since it was all new and everything...it made me go whoozy lol. I kinda panicked a little too. I'm in the same class as Mei,Tracy and Lii... I was suppose to be in another class but i changed to their class..it was an annoying part cuz..it was so frustrating and i almost cried at the spot...-__- wasn't really happy that day..it was kinda the worst first day of school I ever had in my life...

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Meh...i dun wan to talk about it...its too troublesome..>__> anyways moving on...the continuing weeks are ok for me...wasn't too much of trouble..could catch up to teacher...the class has alot of anime fans well that's good..but sometimes i see them as challenges to me cuz i can draw better me...i'm jealous..=v='' well its normal right? I'm jealous so i try my best..i think i'm worst one there...-v-'' even Tracy says so...it destroys my confidence...-v- alot..-v- and i hate it..-v-

U see no one compliments my drawings....lD example: Random sketches....ahaha...lD *fire rages inside* ahaha...I recieve critiques everytime from her..lD and i really hate it...lD it mayb good for making me better at my drawings..but sometimes its too much...and too much as in ALWAYS...she even asked me not to draw random characters of mine...it taints her eyes and its not nice...honestly i'm jealous..of others...that satisfy her...ahaha..but when mei liked one of my drawing cuz it looked her favourite guy in a band..I was abit happy..cuz i never receive such a comment about my random sketches like ever...i was satisfied for abit then came Tracy's comments...lD

Anything i do makes Tracy critque me...examples: My cosplay,my art and so on...well basically to put it straightforward..She looks down on me...-v- Forget it...i dun wanna talk about it anymore....it makes me more negative...well Li is better than b4 i should say..no complaints watsoever but sometimes she might say something hurtful and straightforward but oh well forget it...lD

SO continuing...6th of Feb is Merentas Desa...ugh..a day that i dun wanna go to..even sports day is better D:

14 Feb is Chinese New Year and Valentines Day at the same day..lol i pity couples..XD Uhh..other than that i have no idea wat to say...OH YEAH! I'm sick..having cough and had flu the other day...was a total torture DX thank god the flu is gone now only cough is left lol...^^

Today is the 30th of Jan..its Thaipusam day. Had tuition in the morning and played com until 5.30 p.m. Suppose to have my jap class today but it was closed. So Me and Mei walked around the place since there was so many shops there. We walked here and there,along with my heavy bag carrying her books and mine while she carries her file and her pencil case. It kinda drizzled a little so we ran to the opposite side of our tuition center. A&W was there. It started pouring heavily so we decided to have a snack and wait there in A&W until the rain stops. It was kinda fun and all. The rain stopped so we got out of there and walked somemore..then it started drizzling again.

So we ran and ran while getting wet in the process to other shops..lol. We went to the pet shop and the dogs are so cute lol XD..would love to get one *A* but so expensive T_T haiz..oh well next time then...I was sweating alot cuz i was wearing my binder and was running here and there...@_@ oh god..@_@ i sweat alot today..@_@

Oh well i guess this is the end for January..there's actually abit more of this but meh i'm too lazy to type it out...orz... so until next time ^^ Thanks for reading. ^^

Comic Fiesta 2009 Day 2!!

Wow. This day was the most exciting for me..XD idk. cuz i was cosplaying as Colonello and there was my student(Ryouhei) everywhere! Gosh..it was fun literally..XD I wore my costume to the event but i haven't wore my wig yet..lolz...later i wore it and did my makeup (lolz i know its suppose to be makeup first) but oh well. After that went into the event hall and blah blah blah...some girls wanted to stalk me (lolz..wat was that? O.o) mah dun mind it..after went to take my gun..it was broken...but it got fixed then it got broken again..haiz..so later it's rear was gone..oh well it didn't look too bad..

The best was when I was walking then suddenly this tall "Ryouhei" appeared in front of me,suddenly saying" Master!!" I was like "Hey! My student!! XD " He laughed abit then i asked him.."are you from the forums?" then he said.." No i'm not from the forums,I'm from Australia!", he laughed. " Gahh!! I'm sorry lolz..^^;; wow u came from so far away..",i said.. then he said.." Yeah cuz i went to singapore then i came to here."
"ohh..u went to singapore for AFA?"
"Nono..i just stayed there for holiday( or something like that..i dun really remember) then i came here for Comic Fiesta."
"Oh...r u coming again next year?"
" I'm not sure about next year but hoping i could come again. ^^ "
" Ohh..i see well i hope so to..lolz"
" Btw u look nice in costume.." (or something like that..i dun really remember)
"umm...thanks! ^^" (i think i felt my heart skipped a beat..lolz)
i continued saying: " well i gtg see u soon i hope..^^"
"yeah me too! Bye see ya!'

Wow...lolz i think my heart was thumping that time...lolz XD;;; and then i met Kira-kun (aka my "son") 's Ryouhei (her friend)...Kira was cosplaying as Dino that day nee..XD She's so nice XD and tall... .__. she's fun too XD She played with me lolz..XD weee~~ i love these 2 Ryouhei's the most..!! The 3rd Ryouhei is nice too but not as open? ^^; cuz he said "Hi Master!!" to me and shook my hands then takes pic with the whole "vongola family" then he didn't really talk to me anymore ^^;; but well he might be shy? ^^;;well i dun mind! this 3 ryouhei's r the best!!! ;w; i hope to see u guys again.. ;w;

and another hitman reborn photoshoot....then i saw a "Belarus-san" chasing "Russia-san"...O.O wow...she screamed.." U belong with me Russia!!!!" lolz XD it was epic like straight out of the anime or something XD that made me rofl.. XD Most of the forumers r very welcoming and nice ^^...i like u guys!! >w< and then...it was the also day for the event..at the last few hours..all cosplayers ran up the stage including me,hapi,cheryl and marionette went there...XD It was so fun! XDD We screamed and yelled and do the caramelldansen!! XD It was so cool XDD!! But it was kinda sad that it had to end so fast..T_T we said goodbye to each other and we went home...T_T well later me have some pics so later will upload....^^ Thankiez to Hapi,Lamarionette,Cheryl,Tracy,Michelle and Mei for the booth ^^ *bows*
and Thankiez to Hapi,Lamarionette, Cheryl , Yuuki-chan,Miychi and friends, Yukimi and gang, Ryouhei's (god,I love u guys! ;w;) , Kira and gang, potter and gang,pa-no and kikuzakura and etc. ^^ thanks for the fun times in CF!! XD Hope to see u guys soon!! XD

Comic Fiesta 2009 Day 1!!

In the morning i got up 7.45 in the morning to get ready...and then 8.30 i left the house and went to sunway...after that my friends line up for the tickets and i was looking around for ppl...cuz my Xerxes Break costume is with zcdave and my emily was with space-chan...ahh..i was kinda rushing at that time...setting up the booth then decorating it...then done,finished with the booth..then some things start to happen...my emily is currently in jail (due to some circumstances) n it couldn't reach at CF. So i was abit panic...then i went to look for dave for my costume..lolz thank god i have it lolz

I was glooming because of my emily...and i guess pandora hearts is not really famous afterall...>_>'' well i totally fail as xerxes break anyways..-__-'' ugh...cannot compare to others...i love my costume btw...its nice XD i have a pouch too~ XD haiz..it's a really tiring day..but enjoyed myself ^^ Bought some stuff too..and kena glomped on the whole day..i dun think my boots can last lolz XD;; (i also lazy to type d)

And the day went on...it was fun..annoying gil was fun too..=v= hehe XD lolz XD. Anyways that's all for the first day i think will upload the pics later..XD

Sparkles~

Ano nee Ano nee~ Today i feel very hyper cuz of my headache now! XD I know its weird but what can u do with it?? XD LOL. I'm so happy that Tracy and Mun hoy talked to me when i'm bored! XD Its so funny~! XD They made me laugh and everything! They also said i'm acting like a kid...O__o Do I?? O__O

But Tracy wanted to watch anime so she left me and went to watch...T__T...It's so bad....and i'm so bored now..i can't act like i usually do in front of anyone except of them...cuz others dunno how to reply me if i acted like that...it would've been an awkward conversation...O__O That's why i dunno how to talk them...They'll fell i'm weird...T__T It's so sad....Oh well...at least i still have Tracy and others to annoy~! XDD

Ughh...headache....=___='' it hurts when i'm not happy now....So that's all for now~ XD
WOO~~ XDD LOL!! XDD WEE~~!!!

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Moving on...

-____- I don't wanna complain anymore...its never ending...Its frustrating...haiz... Today wasn't the best day of my life...It was sad..angry..happy..n sad again...Eeesh...>: At least Mei talks to me more than usual cuz I luv Big BAng~! XD N yeah,she does too. Thank god. I have someone to talk about for this. Wow..its the first time in my life that i ever luv a band so much that i'm obsessed..O_O

Its amazing..really~! XD I luv T.O.P~! XD He's so cute most of the times~ N he's especially shy sometimes...its so cute~ <3~>: Their so lucky...*dreamysigh* >/////< I wanna get their autograph too...!! T^T I really really wished they would come to Malaysia!!! I would cry if they really came! XD

That'll be the happiest day of my life~! XD .... <(O////O)> T.OP~ I wanna hug yoooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~!!!~<3~ *gawd..perverticfangirlmaniac..lol XD* G.D is funny and cute too~ Actually i wouldn't hugging all of them~! XDD LOL. I will stop here for now lol. Since its getting late here~ Buh bye~ <3~I'm all love rite now since Big Bang changed my life~ Gud nite~<3~

Confused & Annoyed

Ehhh...?? @__@ I'm seriously confused...I dun get it all...>__<'' Its like...haiz...i dunno anymore...
It seems to me like i'm not wanted...n all I am for everybody is to entertain them..>__>''
If ppl like me putting on my mask that smiles everyday then fine tell me...

Am i being bitchy? Just tell me. I can take it though I don't like insults. Do any of us? Its not like i have a steel heart and i can't feel anything. Especially those who talk behind your backs and insult you in front of your friends. Do you think your making the person you insulted 's life better or making your life any better? Its like a sad pathetic reason for anyone to insult one another. Joking is fine but please I know sarcasm when i hear one. And please for ppl who are blind to ignore the person who talk to you, you are pathetic in every kind of way. -____-

Hmm...? I'm quite pissed right now. So please don't take it in a way that I'm a mean person. I just see things and felt it before so I'm just typing all this down on this stupid blog. I can't keep things bottled in me forever. I might loose my mind some day because of it. Please please,seriously please don't take this the wrong way that I hate everybody in the world. I have my moments and i'm sure you have yours too. So please understand my feelings.

And when i say leave me alone when i'm pissed seriously leave me alone. You don't wanna get scolded or get an awkward conversation from me and thinks I hate it or something. Sometimes people can't different out what's talking to ppl when they need it or when ppl have their issues to deal with. I for one have alot of people misunderstanding me from the way i first meet them and when i talk to them after getting used to. When i first meet ppl I'm shy and i don't talk much. I mean hey, You don't expect me to be talking to someone I don't know non-stop but i always get the feeling after i met anyone and they get to know me...they do not like it and decided its a waste of time and think .."hey..this person is so boring..i'm moving on..NEXT!!" I'm not some kind of trash you can throw away or that i was useful and you can throw me just like that.


Heh...mayb its just me again. >__>'' Sigh...things i do...its not even worth it anymore...-____-

Thinking...

Its already after PMR...n i'm not having fun at all...i've been depressed for these past few days..n actually i dun think any1 noes...its hard...i dun wanna be depressed...when i'm like that it makes it hard to talk to ppl...i dunno wat to do...i'm very confused right now...some1 pls help me...sigh..it'll be great if some1 actually listens to me n gives me gud advices...its hard...n some ppl want me to act as i usually do..the happy me..well i can't...its hard...for me...in alot of ways...-___- Pls give me some space for awhile...

In alot of ways too..i'm lonely...haiz...i cannot get rid of that...oh well i'll try to use it...I'm fed up with my friends to be honest...(friends as in classmates) Ugh..I cannot live with this anymore..i really can't wait till i go to college...seriously...i hate this! AGHH!!! *hits pillow* D8 sry for those who r my friends n i act weirdly towards any of u...*bows 90 degress*

Pls understand wad i'm going thru...if u dun then i'm srry that u can't understand n pls leave me alone....! I'm fed up with always listening n advicing other ppl n in return most of them never listen to me! They always take it n throw it away. Saying : " How pitiful."," So sad." , " Oh well "...Its very hard for me! I dun have any1 who understands me!! ;___; i can't take this anymore...n IF ANY1 HERE WHO READS THIS N FEELS OFFENDED IN ANY KIND OF WAY...PLEASE STOP READING IT N GET OUT OF MY BLOG IMMEADIATELY. DUN LIKE IT THEN DUN READ.

I'm now a volcano that has just erupted...so kindly...i'm saying pls...dun annoy me now...n understand my situation here...Thanks...very much...I know some ppl advices n listens to me too..i'm very happy for having friends like them..Thank you very much! I LOVE YOU GUYS!! Remember that!! *hugs*